The Shadow of my Self Doubt

I woke up this morning with that nagging feeling that I get from time to time and I let it get me. I’m not good enough.So, rather than beginning my day in quiet time and prayer, I put my head back under the covers and went back to sleep. My morning became a rush of getting dressed, getting to class and getting to office hours. I hadn’t even looked at Chapter 6 of my Bible study  yet, but I was dealing with the very concept that Renee Swope talks about in this chapter of “A Confident Heart”. I was dealing with  those same old feelings again. I opened the Word and opened my Bible study and let Renee’s words rush over me, console me and validate for me that I am good enough, because my GOD is good enough.

I recognized that what I was feeling was self-doubt and I claimed it quickly and allowed the love of the Father to envelope me and remind me that as Renee Swope says in “A Confident Hear”:  “When doubt comes against me, saying I’m not good enough for a certain role or position, I will remember that God is for me! He says I am His masterpiece, created to be new in Christ so that I could do good things He planned long ago.” Eph. 2:10 (pg. 114)

I love also underlined this sentence from page 114 of Renee’s book, “From the minute we wake up, we need to tune in and listen to God’s thoughts toward us. Instead of letting doubt come against you, start every day relying on God’s power and living in the security of His promises.” WOW! wish I had read that early this morning instead of at lunch time. But God’s timing is everything. He knew when I needed Him and He met me where I was. That’s a God thing!

Even when I am feeling strong, I can fall back to that self doubt. But God is in control and He is here for me and for you if we just listen.

Because it’s all about Him and not about me,

Lynn

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