When I sit down to think about what I should include on this page, I hesitate to write anything because even now I have feelings of self-doubt and I hear that voice in my head saying why would anyone want to read what you write. Who are you to think you can do this. But, I know who I am and more importantly, I know WHOSE I am. I am a daughter of the King, a Princess, and because of what my Father has done, I am infinitely more important than I am ever going to be worthy of.
There have been so many things that have happened in my life that I can only explain by saying “It’s a God thing.” They are only possible through His grace and I want to shout it from the mountaintops and spread the word of His love to all corners of the earth. But, what can I really do from my little corner in Tallahassee, Florida? I can do this. I can share my experiences and show others how God has been in everything that has happened in my life. And then maybe, just maybe, that will be enough for someone to know that they are not alone and that someone loves them and is with them, even when they may feel completely and utterly alone. Abba, father is always there.
So, what you may ask gives me credence to do this. Well, in the last two decades I have experienced;
- my mom’s diagnosis of both breast cancer and Parkinson’s Disease
- the death of my father at age 60
- mom moving to Tallahassee so I could be her caregiver
- AJ, my son, dealing with anger issues that almost destroyed him and me
- giving up a lucrative career in sales to “pursue my passion” to teach
- Andrew, my other son’s marriage at at 18
- having to put my mom in a nursing home
- my son Andrew getting divorced
- losing my mom due to complications from Parkinson’s Disease
- AJ getting married
- changing jobs at age 52
- my brother coming out
- becoming a grandmother for the first time
I could not have made it through any one of these, let alone all of them, without the grace of God. Believing what He promised in Jeremiah 29:11-14 (The Message)
“I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out–plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen.
When you come looking for me, you’ll find me.
Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed.
I’ll turn things around for you…You can count on it.”
I do admit I forgot this for a while. In fact, I forgot this promise for about 15 years. But, God didn’t. He held on to me as tight as He could and when I came running back, He was there. Arms wide open, ready to love me and comfort me to show me that grace. I am so glad He loves me, and you, that much. Aren’t you?
I hope you’ll come by once and a while to hear about how God’s grace is affecting and effecting my life. I do it all for Him now. That’s all I want to do.